Showing posts with label sickness. Show all posts
Showing posts with label sickness. Show all posts
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
another update on me...
So, I went back to the Dr on Monday. She doesn't want me to go back to work or resume any activity to amount anything until Monday, Nov 8th. Still no cleaning, cooking, you know household things. She says now that I'm back on track she wants me to stay that way. Things are beginning to show the signs of mama being down and out around here. As for me, I am feeling truly back on track and I'm not having to take pain pills any longer to manage the pain. It is gone for the most part. It wakes me from up from time to time at night if I move wrong, but all in all, it's really gone. Now, I'm just tired... all... the... time... I can do something then, I'm totally beat. I ran a few errands on top of going to the Dr on Monday and all day yesterday I was worn out. I'm going to go out for a little while this morning to get pumpkins for the kids to carve with Jason tonight and I've got to get a couple more things for Halloween costumes and I expect to be beat when I get home. Thankfully, we still have movies to watch and India, Kalib, and I have started the Monk series and there are like a gazillion series of those and we just finished the first, so I' have plenty to keep me occupied. Mostly, I'm just ready to have energy again and lots of it, but I know it takes time and I'm trying my best to pace myself so I don't slide backwards...
Sunday, October 24, 2010
Sunday
Well, I'm feeling much better, but still got some weird pain things going on. I go back to the Dr. tomorrow and I am still running a fever on and off. It's really beginning to freak me out. I'm on two NASTY antibiotics (taking lots of probiotics to try to offset the damage they are doing to my immune system) and though many of the symptoms I was having are beginning to go away, I don't know if it is really because of the antibiotics or just time. I did get out of the house yesterday for a while and Jason and I have dinner at Mirko's. (I had bought a coupon $15 for $30 worth of food - such a treat). All in all I would say I am definitely on the upswing if this pain would pass. I've lost quite a bit of weight, but I'm happy to say my appetite is finally returning, so weight loss should begin to end soon. I go back to the Dr tomorrow and I have been paying closer attention to my symptoms and when they happen and exactly where the pain is at and what it feels like in hopes of her having some answers. I guess we'll see. This is not exactly how I thought this was going to go. I really thought I would rebound much better and be ready for what life has to throw me. Guess that's what I get for having expectations of something I knew nothing about beyond what I have read. Big lesson there... oh well... one day soon I will be completely back to normal and forget all about this process.
Thursday, October 21, 2010
thursday's update
So, I went back to the Dr today and she doesn't really understand what's going on with me because she says everything on the inside looks and feels ok (different diagnosis than the Dr on Mon, but he wasn't my normal Dr AND I've been on antibiotics since then). Thankfully, I am feeling much better. I feel almost back to normal today with the obvious limitations of moving around too fast or too much, but for the first time in over a week I actually have color in my checks and somewhat of an appetite! WOOHOO!!!!! I was still running a low grade fever when I was in the Dr's office today and my blood pressure is pretty low, so she's having me come back on Monday to recheck things out. She also ran a white cell count which I assume they will call me and let me know about. She is trying to find out if I've got some kind of silent infection going on, but I don't think so. I think the antibiotic I took did the trick mostly and maybe the fever has taken care of the rest. She is such a great Dr. I know I am in great hands and her apology for me not being able to see her on Monday was so sincere (she doesn't see patients when she does surgeries.) She also told me she is on call this weekend so if I start running another fever or my pain gets worse she wants me to call her and tell the answering service she said for me to call her) I could ask for no more from a Dr. She even remembers that I am a quilter. In spite of all the problems I have had I still feel like I have finally found the Dr I have been looking for all these years. I wish she was taking new patients so I could recommend all my friends to her. So, I'm feeling like I am back on the mend and back on track and this girl will be back on the dance floor in the 6 weeks promised! (fingers crossed)
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
another update on me...
So, I'm not doing so hot. I went back to the doctor on Monday and evidentially I developed an infection in the incision on the inside. It hurts something fierce and the pain will subside for a while and fool me into thinking I'm turning around then by morning, I'm back to running a fever and hurting. Now, I openly admit to having a hard time not over doing it, but seriously, I am trying. We are having food brought in thanks to our amazing friends so I'm not having to cook. Rachel, Jennifer, and Shannon came over to clean and the whole time they were here I stayed planted on the futon - even though it was really hard. Today, I'm still running a fever and I'm still hurting, but I have decided to give the antibiotics one more day to do their job and if I still am not truly on the mend tomorrow, I will call the doctors office. I spent some time reading on the internet yesterday and all this isn't all that uncommon with a vaginal hysterectomy (children who read my blog, I'm sorry for going there), but you know me, I like the most in shape person I know and one of the healthiest people I know so I thought I would be on the other side of the pain by now and getting back to some normal stuff - like being able to leave the house or having the energy to do so, but alas, here I am on Wednesday, still struggling to shake the pain and trying to not let it get me down. I AM NOT GOOD AT LAYING AROUND. I have far too much energy for it - my brain works too fast and I have so many things I would love to do while I am off work.
On a somewhat different note, I would love to give BIG BIG BIG props to my kids who are nothing short of AWESOME! They have been totally willing to do everything I ask of them without attitude and sometimes they do even more than they have to. India did almost all the laundry on her own yesterday starting with separating the clothes. I in NO WAY had the expectation of her doing that. She didn't fold them, she left them for Jason, who didn't want to do it last night, but promises he will tonight. Kalib has been willing to load the dishwasher with the dishes that are sitting around and I couldn't ask for more. I feel like I am so lucky. In spite of all the struggle right now, the kids are showing their true colors and I could not be more proud. They are awesome humans and Jason and I are so grateful for them not just because they have been so awesome during all this but because they are just so awesome.
Sunday, October 17, 2010
how am I doing?
Everyone that calls, that's the question on their mind... how is the over active, over opinionated, general over achiever doing... Well, let's back up... for those who read and don't know yet... A little over a month ago - more like 6 weeks, I had a big scare thinking this time I had finally developed cervical cancer. I have been treated for precancerous cells pretty much every time I've gone to the doctor since I was 19 - at least that's how it seems - I actually had 6 treatments since then. I have/had HPV which is a known link to cervical cancer and most people after they have a treatment (leep procedure or cryogenenic procedure) on their cervix their body gets over it and they never have issues with it again. NOT the case for me. My body seems unable to fight it off. I also have/had awful menstrual issues since Kalib was born. I was already having weird cycles before Kalib, but they got much worse after him. For 10 years, I have been struggling with terrible periods, irregularity and pain being the worst part of them. I found out at my most recent doctors visit that not only was the HPV in full flare, but there was a very likely chance I had actually developed cancer this time. With some further investigation, we also discovered that I have a condition similar to endometriosis (which is much more common than what I had), but basically, the lining of my uterus did not shed pretty much at all with my cycle and the thicker the lining the higher the chances of developing cancer in my uterus were. Basically, I was a walking talking cancer making machine in my female parts. I was looking at about a 90% chance of developing it somewhere in there. So... with a lot of confidence and pure exhaustion from 20 days cycles that often left me bed ridden, and with the doctors sincere approval, we decided I would have a hysterectomy, but I got to keep my ovaries which are still healthy and functioning properly, so I haven't been propelled into menopause at 35 and I don't have to take hormones to maintain some sense of normalcy and I will get to go through menopause like everyone else with the exception of not having periods. I will still have the monthly hormonal swings (poor Jason) since they are regulated by the ovaries and not by the uterus. I am excited that for the first time in 10 years the first day of my cycle will not leave me on pain pills and misery, I will only know I'm supposed to be having it, but that's all...
That brings us to Monday... my surgery went well. The doctor was worried she would have to cut, but thankfully, she did not and everything went well - my uterus and cervix have gone to pathology to make absolutely sure there is no cancer, but we all feel confident there isn't since it didn't show up in the very thorough biopsy I had at the beginning of this whole process. I went in at like 9 and was out around 12 recovering, but that day is pretty groggy due to all the medicine I had to take. Tues morning I got to back off the pain meds (no more morphine) and got to loose the IV and catheter and by Tues evening I got to come home.
Wed was a long day of laying around, Thursday was a long day of laying around. Friday was a long day of laying around although I managed to get out of the house and go buy some fabric which always lifts my spirits. I decided yesterday to try to start really backing off the pain pills and I'm doing all right. I only took 1 yesterday and so far today, I've not had one (it's 1:00 pm) and I'm feeling like I can make it until bedtime again. I have absolutely no energy. 20 minutes of activity leaves me in the bed for 2 hours which the doctor told me I would be surprised by how tired I would be. She was right. I thought by now I might actually feel like doing something, but nope, still don't. I just want to lay around. I have no appetite to speak of, but again, everyone tells me this is normal post surgery. I've been trying to eat and we have such a wonderful friend family who is bringing us meals so Jason is not having to cook and he's getting to breathe a little since he has to do everything. I'm not supposed to pick up anything over 5 pounds and I can't drive for at least another week - DR said 3 weeks, we'll see if I last that long since I have to go back to work for the end of the month work.
So, how am I doing? I'm stir crazy, tired of watching movies, grateful for amazing friends who obviously love us more than we deserve, grateful for children who are going above and beyond what is expected of them at their ages, grateful for the love of my life who is ready and willing to do whatever I need, grateful to have finally found a doctor that was willing to listen to me say I am tired of hurting and I don't want to take hormones I don't need to make my body act like nothing is wrong when something is obviously very wrong. And me... I'm just ready to feel normal, but I know it's a process and this slowing down is supposed to be teaching something. I still have pain and could probably still be using pain pills, but I'm tired of my head feeling displaced and I'm thankful that time seems to be passing quickly... Thank you for all the support everyone has offered. I hope we can repay it sometime. So, that's what's going on over here...
Friday, May 23, 2008
a trying week...
This has been a hard week for Kalib. ON Monday, Kalib came down with not only swimmers ear in both ears, but also a middle ear infection in his left ear. He has felt just awful and not been his usual fun and energetic self. Thankfully, as the week has progressed he has gotten better and he is on the up and up, but his ears are still bothering him some if he gets bumped on them. I get so sad when the kids aren't well. The endless bounds of energy they have makes me feel like I have it too (even though I don't). Hopefully, next week he will be better because the pool is opening at the Y and we have loads of sunshine to enjoy and lots of swimming to do.
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